I Talk to Myself

I am tired of buzzing thru my groups to find the right group to post in this morning.
Been in deep thought for awhile now.
Feeling disconnected from here.
What was, is no longer.
Looking for that something, the connection ... falling short.
In a clinging attitude, may I add.
But my energy and desire is dropping away.
I am happy and sad about what I am feeling.
I feel it is a message, a lesson for me in this thinking of mine.
Questions whirl . . . .
If I feel like I do, then why do I cling to here?
Am I clinging to the past, the experience I had on EP?
I witness to my own approach here on SW.
My identification . . . .
The need for this site.
Is this place the real nourishment I need for my growth?

Cautiously postponing . . . .
I question myself.