what does it mean when you don't want to do nothing

or you don't want to leave your comfort zone? which with me is my apartment, i've been indoors for months now, been doing my grocery shopping online, ive been indoors that long, mainly due to anxiety problems regarding going out......but, i love being at home in my flat, i wake up everyday around 12 noon, get my breakfast....then put the tv on as a bit of atmosphere.....then i turn my desktop computer on, and that's me for the day.....and i'm just happy doing nothing else really..

i'm 48 now, and unfortunately did miss out on a lot in life because of my mental issues, never had a steady girlfriend for example....i did have flings with girls in my youth though, but never found or met a girl as a steady girlfriend, so in my eyes, i did miss out there......and just never had the interactions in life that i wanted, or never met the people i wanted to meet, so yes, i did miss out..

and i suppose whilst i'm staying indoors doing virtually nothing, but relaxing and being a slob in effect...i'm still missing out....especially because my main ambition at this juncture is to find a regular girlfriend....so that won't happen, if i'm staying indoors all the time and doing ' nothing '.

and i am doing nothing, literally....eating, enjoying my bed and sleeping, browsing the internet, on social media etc, and overall, i think i'm happy with it....i find it scary and daunting now at the thought of going out and doing anything or having to make an effort with people................it would be nice for a really pale white yellowy haired busty blonde lady to turn up on my doorstep one day, then that's it....my life would be complete, because that's the sort of lady i want......

anyone have any thoughts about doing nothing and not wanting to bother and just staying in your comfort zone?