Bored of Self

I guess, I have a different perspective than many people.
But, I would find putting myself first to be one of the most boring things in the world.
Don't get me wrong I stick up for myself and I put boundaries in place.
But, to only think of myself and to think of myself as above and number one to anyone else to me is extremely boring.
I probably should go volunteer again, I would probably feel better about myself, because I'm just sitting here sad and bored.
In a sense I am putting myself first, because I want to just sit here and not engage with the world.
And it sure is boring...