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Solitude chose me.

I am alone a majority of the time. It is joyous to see people together, but it doesn't give me hope anymore. Nobody, even when I had partners, wanted to enjoy the simple things together with me.

It's sad, but simultaneously a relief to not care anymore. Years have gone by, so many miles on my feet and breathtaking beauty I've experienced by myself.

I thought I was giving up but it's not like a happy surprise wouldn't be a dream come true, I don't have those dreams anymore though. I have accepted I am too strange to be part of human interaction and togetherness. I'm not welcome at anyone's table and it was never a matter of what I deserve(d). I just don't belong.

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SwampFlower · 31-35, F

My life as I know it now started as a happy surprise. I was content being alone, even preferred it most of the time. There is something to be said about experiencing life on your own terms without having to worry about someone else. My solitude was a gift I wasn’t willing to give away to just anyone.

There is always room at my table for you.

ScreamingFox · 41-45, F

@SwampFlower I don't mind the solitude and I am very selective who I share my magic with, just, I didn't ask to be this alone. I couldn't even turn to anyone if I needed to... Quality time together is an impossibility I wish my son wasn't stuck with as well. But alas, nothing I can do about it.

SwampFlower · 31-35, F

@ScreamingFox Love you 🫂

ScreamingFox · 41-45, F

@SwampFlower love you too 🖤

being · 36-40, F

If they are not welcoming you, it is because they in themselves feel unwelcomed.
Invite them to lunch..
I think many live in unexpressed solitude and would like an invite ...

Bexsy

I have been alone so long. Don't know how to be around people.
Even at work, i chose an office in the basement. Away from everyone

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IM5688 · 61-69, M

@Bexsy You don't have to alone and you don't have to be around people. All you need is one other person that cares for you deeply and is willing to always be with you.

Bexsy

@IM5688 nice thought.

IM5688 · 61-69, M

@Bexsy That nice thought could become a reality...if you allow it to be.

being · 36-40, F

I've read recently how, the medicine person/healer first suffers, then returns with the medicine

ScreamingFox · 41-45, F

@being I would love to bring the medicine but I fear I'm just going to wither

being · 36-40, F

@ScreamingFox wait, just go on a little longer, I believe you're onto something

Achelois · F

I know how you feel. 🥺

ScreamingFox · 41-45, F

@Achelois it's okay. We are part of the bigger picture and that is also something wonderful.

Achelois · F

@ScreamingFox

We are the real ones, that’s why we don’t fit in.

🌸🌷✨

val70 · 51-55

Keyword here: contemplation, in the sense that one should use the singular felt solitude for deep reflective thought :) I recommend the Ignation meditation. One can do that with regard to nature, art or music

caccoon · 36-40

You are a part of the world and a thing of nature. 💙

Keep being beautiful 💙💙

ScreamingFox · 41-45, F

@caccoon time to make peace 🖤

caccoon · 36-40

@ScreamingFox I had to do the same...

I realized that even if I can find someone to do it with, they don't appreciate things at the same pace or with the wonder that I do.

It's okay to love life on your own... We are a part of everything, and all together.

Rambler · 61-69, M

Yet you are blessed by awareness of the beauty of the world around you ... Peace

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