My ex boyfriend may have moved on, (so I've heard). We share the same friends. We just don't meet at the same places anymore, after I ended our relationship. But!, there was really no choice, controlling as he was!.There was a moment were I had to choose!..It was "do this!, or we can't do that!". There was a bit of blackmail towards the end, I felt like I was cornered, like there was no sense of freedom!... But the reason I'm sooooo sensitive is because of the subtle signs I never picked up. The part were he dedicates himself and goes all out, making you feel you should commit too soon. But at first? He seems all nice?, and shows a genuine interest in everything I like, and comforting,..and there with me, together enjoying our own personal time.....
That was all good, its how i felt at that point i suppose, when I felt comfortable, that's perhaps the peak of my sensitivity. Because we met together in a group of friends, and turned up to places together like it was real..and everyone was happy for us
Then!...he wasn't just showing interest in my hobbies, he started flourishing me with expensive gifts that I like, from my favourite places, at random times too. That felt uncomfortable. He got frustrated when I spoke, or looked at anyone else. And he wanted me to change my political views to suit his....this is where I ended up getting blackmailed!...And I ended it!..And he was upset at the time!,..But he was clever, he tried guilt tripping me by buying me a few personal gifts..personal to our relationship..then at the point of me ending our relationship, making me open them up, with memories, like merchandise of our favourite movie we watched together, souvenirs from our favourite holiday, figures that matched nicknames we gave eachother.
I did feel bad at the time, because I'm sensitive...but I shouldn't have. He doesn't have the right to try and change me, or control me....but whether it still be like disappointment or not, its as if its left like a little scar..i don't know...like to begin he was so nice....and I have all the good memories, they felt meaningful...but because it was just a lure to control...I'll be feeling the sting more than he will...It does say..I am sensitive
