I Am a very sensitive person indeed. I know when people are different around me. Short with me, and perhaps awkward. Admittedly I know that maybe I don't help myself being anxious, or not letting others in with my poker face..I'm not as spontaneous when it comes to "topic of conversation" as some people may be. I don't know peoples boundaries..but they might see me as having way too many boundaries. And I could be totally blind to all this!!. But different people have different perspectives.
However recently I tried to adjust a little, I have changed a lot, although still very anxious at times. However I feel like saying before I go into this that...I'm not perfect..I can mess up calculations occasionally..or forget things at work.....But I stay professional, I care too much, I look for other duties when its quiet, I have patience for people, and I've received positive feedback......
I have thought at times I might come across work orientated..or serious. I always started a new workplace making a good impression under the assumption and perhaps fear that you'd get pulled up or called to the office if you were slacking. Maybe its because my dad owns a business...and he made sure I was working to the best of my ability!
But, like I said, i tried to adjust..i learned a few things when getting chatty like.... A few have been suspended, One is on a final warning And they carry on a lot during work hours, they wind eachother up and don't let warnings, disciplines or suspensions stop them!...They are full of emotions, gossiping, bitching..getting completely angry and upset, then laughing and shouting. They can be impatient with people...And the number one way to enter conversation is by talking about how much you hate work!!!.
And trying to juggle everything...as much as I kind of don't want to differ, and do want to get to know people, and build a better connection..I can't say I completely want to change myself,..I like to provide high standards....and maybe thats not fun?..maybe thats not interesting? I just need to learn, not to be too hard on myself!!!...
