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I know what's wrong with me and I'm struggling to accept it.

I hate to admit but my sister was right. I got the proper testing done due to a discussion I had regarding my meltdowns where I scream,freak out and hurt myself and we've come to the conclusion I have what they call level 1 or high functioning/mild autism. It honestly explains a lot in terms of how I act and how I've struggled to fit in my entire life. I always knew something was wrong with me and that I was off from others around me but I just thought it was a self esteem issue.

I'm struggling to accept it because technically this means I'm disabled and i don't want to be labeled that. I also don't like how it makes me feel like an inferior other. I feel ugly and disgusting and I know I bring shame and dishonor to my family. I don't want to be seen as a "retard" or a "failure". Besides telling you guys I'm keeping it a tightlipped secret. Nobody will know. I'm not telling my current or future jobs. I'm never going to tell a partner or even spouse if I ever get that far as to even have one of those. I'm not even going to tell friends or family. I'm especially not telling my sister because i don't want to give her the satisfaction of being right.
dale74 · M
So everything is about you. Means you dont care about others. Having problems means you need help and people need to know especially those you love or are close to you. As for work it is a as needs to know. Your employer does need to know at least management or the owner because if you act out you don't want someone else to be punished for something is truly nobody's fault but a misunderstanding. A misunderstanding based on how your interpretation of the situation.

 
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