help everyone but myself

probs stems from the fact that i’m always there for others when they need me. any time someone needs help (homework, advice, someone to talk to) i drop everything and listen bc that’s what friends do. but i won’t let others help me bc i don’t think they can and i’m pretty much a control freak so i don’t trust people to deal with my problems (if i can’t fix them how can i expect u to?) it also stems from the fact that every time i try to open up i feel like i’m shot down as people don’t expect me to seek help but i wish sometimes i could just let someone else take the reigns and guide me bc i’m getting really exhausted