I Am Not Who They Think I Am
I’m many different things to different people. Some may call me an angel who helped them in a time of need, others may call me a devil, for whatever reason they’ve constructed in their mind.
I’ve always strived to be a good person, and it hurts when some don’t recognise that. But for those who do support me, I will do anything to repay their kindness and respect. I truly value even the smallest acts of kindness.
I am a bit quieter to those I don't know. I tend to reserve myself a lot in many situations instead of letting my ideas out. This may make me seem moody, stupid or aloof to some people. If only they knew, I love laughing too loudly, talking about life, love and the universe, sharing without holding back, being alive and present for those I care about and living life large wherever and whenever possible.
Holding back or being quieter in some situations is just a side of me that followed me from childhood. In the rough world I grew up in, being honest, friendly and open could get you mocked, belittled or even beaten up. Some of the children I went to school with had very rough backgrounds, and therefore took things out on other kids, like me, at school. I didn’t understand them then, but I think I do a lot more now. They probably were not terrible people; they were probably hurting and didn’t know an appropriate manner of expressing their hurt and anger.
As a youngster, and as an adult, unkind behaviour could really get to me; I would think about something all day long just to figure it out and make sense of it. People intrigue me to the end. I love to wonder why they do the things they do.sometimes I’m completely baffled by unkind behaviour.
Many don’t understand the contradictions inside me. I can be a bit reserved and only open up to people who I completely and utterly trust and even then I may still hold back some of my thoughts. I am filled with insight about everything around me, because of the painful situations I’ve been through. On the other side of the coin, I cherish every moment that I get to laugh with my friends and family. I am extremely honest and deplore the thought of being lied to.
I have a great sense of humour, I like to joke around a lot. I do have some flaws just like the rest of us, but no one is perfect in this world. I don't say things i don't mean and i will never break a promise.
I really do think smart is sexy and I adore smart, kind honest, caring people. I tend to favour people that are modest, intelligent, individualistic, kind and funny. I have a special place in my heart for those who are disadvantaged, lonely, mistreated or have been treated as outsiders. If "everyone's doing it" you'll probably see me running the other way.
I am a pretty easygoing person normally, I detest rudeness, bullying, selfishness and arrogance in people; I love kind and nice people. I am very loyal to my family and friends, that is my very, very few REAL friends.
I admire and look up to those who have worked hard for what they've got. I have a really big heart which should be a good thing, but has proved to be a disadvantage sometimes. I've been through a lot in my life, and have learned that with everything you go through, there is always something to learn from and grow from and I mainly believe that each experience can make you a better person, in some way, shape, or form; even if it’s just learning to dump or avoid certain types of people very quickly when they show their true self.
I’ll always have room in my heart for other kind, genuine, caring people who treat others with decency, not based on how good looking, rich, popular or powerful they are, but just treating them decently on the basis that they’re human, and thus deserve kindness and dignity.
I’ve always strived to be a good person, and it hurts when some don’t recognise that. But for those who do support me, I will do anything to repay their kindness and respect. I truly value even the smallest acts of kindness.
I am a bit quieter to those I don't know. I tend to reserve myself a lot in many situations instead of letting my ideas out. This may make me seem moody, stupid or aloof to some people. If only they knew, I love laughing too loudly, talking about life, love and the universe, sharing without holding back, being alive and present for those I care about and living life large wherever and whenever possible.
Holding back or being quieter in some situations is just a side of me that followed me from childhood. In the rough world I grew up in, being honest, friendly and open could get you mocked, belittled or even beaten up. Some of the children I went to school with had very rough backgrounds, and therefore took things out on other kids, like me, at school. I didn’t understand them then, but I think I do a lot more now. They probably were not terrible people; they were probably hurting and didn’t know an appropriate manner of expressing their hurt and anger.
As a youngster, and as an adult, unkind behaviour could really get to me; I would think about something all day long just to figure it out and make sense of it. People intrigue me to the end. I love to wonder why they do the things they do.sometimes I’m completely baffled by unkind behaviour.
Many don’t understand the contradictions inside me. I can be a bit reserved and only open up to people who I completely and utterly trust and even then I may still hold back some of my thoughts. I am filled with insight about everything around me, because of the painful situations I’ve been through. On the other side of the coin, I cherish every moment that I get to laugh with my friends and family. I am extremely honest and deplore the thought of being lied to.
I have a great sense of humour, I like to joke around a lot. I do have some flaws just like the rest of us, but no one is perfect in this world. I don't say things i don't mean and i will never break a promise.
I really do think smart is sexy and I adore smart, kind honest, caring people. I tend to favour people that are modest, intelligent, individualistic, kind and funny. I have a special place in my heart for those who are disadvantaged, lonely, mistreated or have been treated as outsiders. If "everyone's doing it" you'll probably see me running the other way.
I am a pretty easygoing person normally, I detest rudeness, bullying, selfishness and arrogance in people; I love kind and nice people. I am very loyal to my family and friends, that is my very, very few REAL friends.
I admire and look up to those who have worked hard for what they've got. I have a really big heart which should be a good thing, but has proved to be a disadvantage sometimes. I've been through a lot in my life, and have learned that with everything you go through, there is always something to learn from and grow from and I mainly believe that each experience can make you a better person, in some way, shape, or form; even if it’s just learning to dump or avoid certain types of people very quickly when they show their true self.
I’ll always have room in my heart for other kind, genuine, caring people who treat others with decency, not based on how good looking, rich, popular or powerful they are, but just treating them decently on the basis that they’re human, and thus deserve kindness and dignity.
