I Keep Too Many Things to Myself
I'm not a quitter, but I feel like giving up....... but how do you take a break, when there is nothing to do....
everything feels so pointless... its like a loss without having lost anything... well other than all personal human IRL communication and interaction...
I feel like I'm forgotten... excommunicated.. I'm starting to understand why some people wreak havoc an destruction just to get some attention...
...and I can only imagine so many other people feel the same at the moment, but I have no clue how to reach out and connect to someone invisibly hidden behind a closed door...
I'm sure it will blow over ... eventually... but I'm now locked in for almost 3 months... and I have no idea when and how I actually can meet the people I havent talked to in months by then.. .cuz I'm sure they will have forgotten about me.. .as I probably have forgotten about them...
I feel myself getting settled in new habits of loneliness, habits that are good now, but that will be difficult to break again when they are actually getting harmful
this disease is no joke: I have talked to to many people through a screen who have lost a close one to belittle it. I agree, accept and support the measures put in place.... but the price is high, and a lot of damage is incurred. which, like the water damage done by the fire brigades during an inferno, will leave deep scars, and costly repairs... personal, economic, social, emotional...
everything feels so pointless... its like a loss without having lost anything... well other than all personal human IRL communication and interaction...
I feel like I'm forgotten... excommunicated.. I'm starting to understand why some people wreak havoc an destruction just to get some attention...
...and I can only imagine so many other people feel the same at the moment, but I have no clue how to reach out and connect to someone invisibly hidden behind a closed door...
I'm sure it will blow over ... eventually... but I'm now locked in for almost 3 months... and I have no idea when and how I actually can meet the people I havent talked to in months by then.. .cuz I'm sure they will have forgotten about me.. .as I probably have forgotten about them...
I feel myself getting settled in new habits of loneliness, habits that are good now, but that will be difficult to break again when they are actually getting harmful
this disease is no joke: I have talked to to many people through a screen who have lost a close one to belittle it. I agree, accept and support the measures put in place.... but the price is high, and a lot of damage is incurred. which, like the water damage done by the fire brigades during an inferno, will leave deep scars, and costly repairs... personal, economic, social, emotional...
