I Keep Too Many Things to Myself

I just took my internship and it just made my want to hate myself even more.

For the last few years, all I wanted is to finish college and start new by having a job. I hated college so much that I just want to end everything. But as I took my internship, I felt like there won't be any difference after college.

Maybe it's just me. Maybe I'm just really boring that no one wants to talk to me. Everyone's ignoring me as if I was not there.

Sometimes I think about ending everything right now. Existing doesn't make any sense if I'll just feel like this forever.

I don't know. I'm just really hopeless right now.

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SW-User

Interns are temporary. Most people realize this and unless you directly work with someone, many will choose not to talk with you because your time is short by design. So it's not you, it's the situation.

LittleLamp · 26-30, F

@SW-User yeah. I really hope that's the case :(
I just felt ignored when a new employee came and she was welcomed nicely. Unlike me, I really felt ignored.

SW-User

@LittleLamp Learn what you can and reach out to others there - make connections and get yourself noticed, which will help you for future employer s. Also, if you can make a small name for yourself, they could turn your internship into a job offer when you graduate! But it all comes from you, don't expect it to come to you.