I Am Weird

Hi this is about my first day of school and how I feel kinda.. I feel like the complete polar opposite of the people around my age at school and that no one can understand how I feel or think. Many teenagers would think that way now that I think about it, but on their surface it looks like they're all the rest. I feel like I'm the only person who doesn't try to have the same mask as everyone else at school. When I wake up, I don't check to see which "friend", that I barely know, did what yesterday on snapchat or instagram and make a fuss about that, I just check the weather and say good morning to the people I love. (I'm saying "I" so much, I don't mean to come across self-centered or self-righteous.) During school I just go for the learning new things and a future. I'm an overall average student. (if average includes not talking to anyone) Whenever I walk into class I feel left out, being attacked by eyes since I'm that new kid who isn't white who moved in last year, walking through the halls I just see glares that weren't meant for me (i think) but take them personally anyways. But those aren't new feelings, even though it feels surprising every time. They all talk about how they're going to "smoke pot at the field" and "f*** this person later" or how they "scored a girl last night" it's like they're in a rush to grow up but still not care of what lies ahead. I get it, that there's a lot to enjoy at this stage in life and I don't want to rush to the next, but it feels like nothing here is in store for me, so I want to be in that next stage and move on from all these people.