Someone asked me
Today someone asked me why im so distant to my mother. Why i dont say i love you, hug her, or neither say hi whenever i see her.
And honestly that made me question myself too. I grow with having a young mother. I basically raised myself due to her being "not ready", and i understand. She was young.
So whenever i feel bad, jealous and all, i keep reasoning out that shes young. She dont know any better. Shes still learning on how to be a mother. I need to understand, i need to be patient because she's been through a lot.
It goes like that for 18 years, but until now she's still learning how to be a mother. I guess it goes like that for so long that i just found myself not caring. Im 18, im an adult now. I dont need a mother to take care of me. That's what i told myself.
And honestly that made me question myself too. I grow with having a young mother. I basically raised myself due to her being "not ready", and i understand. She was young.
So whenever i feel bad, jealous and all, i keep reasoning out that shes young. She dont know any better. Shes still learning on how to be a mother. I need to understand, i need to be patient because she's been through a lot.
It goes like that for 18 years, but until now she's still learning how to be a mother. I guess it goes like that for so long that i just found myself not caring. Im 18, im an adult now. I dont need a mother to take care of me. That's what i told myself.
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