I have this weird question, IDK what you'll think of it, how important is it for you to receive a

massage from your partner? Due to my anxiety I tend to always have lots of knots on my back, my muscles on there are always tense and it hurts overtime. Not one single gf that I've had in the past has agreed to give me a massage when I have asked for it, when I explained it's because of this reason. However, none has been okay with me going to a spa to help ease this ailment. You can imagine, the reason why has always been because they suspect I will end up getting a massage from a good looking girl like in the movies or something. However, to be hones, it is nothing like that, sometimes I just wish I had some sort of relief, as there are times when I have to deal with lots of stress and the tension in my traps and the pain that comes with it is too much.

Do you suffer or know of someone that suffers from something similar? Am I asking for too much?