After quitting alcohol a year & a half ago & then going to jail for a few months, I lost weight. I wasn't fat but I got used being a tad bit chunkier than my younger self. People would point it out sometimes & I got kinda self conscious about it. I was embarrassed about my shape & I didn't like what I saw when I looked in the mirror. Not that it was really bad or anything... It's just not the way I was used to seeing myself.
Anyway, here's me from a few years ago, not long before my daughter was born. I was even flexing my core so I didn't look as chunky.
& These next pics are from now. I honestly don't like how skinny I look & even though I like that I lost fat, I don't like that I lost weight. So I've been seriously thinking of getting a gym membership just to be more fit. Put some more weight back on but the good kind. I wouldn't aim to be like a "gym bro" or a body builder or anything but I figure if I could get in this much better shape from simply making a few healthier choices.. maybe working out might go a long way too 🤷
Honestly despite the hard stuff in my life right now, I feel positive & determined. It's only a bonus that I'm also slowly becoming more proud of what I see in the mirror because that's a first in a pretty long time
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