Slept 3 hours, busy all day, then gotta work all night

I haven't been home since last night & I won't be home again until tomorrow morning basically. I kinda hope Naya's there when I get home because I miss my kid already 😔 I feel so bad for being sad all day with her yesterday. I tried my best to be myself. I held my best friends newborn baby today & it made me wanna cry just because I miss when Naya was that tiny. It had me thinking shit like how I wish things could've worked out with her mom & we could've had another kid someday. I can't imagine having another kid with anybody else. I'm so thankful I have Naya. She's saving my life even right now because she's the reason I still wanna be my best self & I can't give up.

I'm on my way to go hang out with the girl who's been trying to meet up since yesterday. We've been talking a lot like old times & I'm gonna be busy until the weekend again so might as well catch up right now while I have some time. We haven't seen each other in 10 years so a lot has changed but we've always known each others whole life stories. Idk.. seems better than dwelling in the sad shit going on in my head right now