How tf am I supposed to carry on? 😔

I've never been so hurt in my life. There's nothing that could ever be said or done to fix it. All I can think about is how you don't really love me. Because someone who loves somebody, doesn't do what you did to me 😔 it just doesn't happen. The fact that you talked to him, drove to his house, let him f*ck you, then lied to me about it while I was at home watching our daughter like a decent father.

That's the kind of person you are. That's the kind of mother you are. & You have no right to make me feel like shit for the way I'm feeling. You say you feel bad but I don't see it or feel that from you. I feel everything that you feel the second you walk through the door... & I don't feel any pain or regret from you right now. I feel the cold. I can FEEL that you don't think you did anything wrong. Even though you tell me the opposite. To you, it doesn't even matter because you don't love me anyway 😔