I Am Me

I find it increasingly difficult at times to be social.Friends give me what I don't expect or want from them.
I find ways to avoid them,cancel parties or don't answer calls,or groupchats ..
still I am dragged into that mundane atmosphere,which makes me uneasy and socially uncomfortable.

I don't want ..but I get often hurt..
I wonder whats wrong with me or is there something wrong even?

If I choose to be unsocial and love my alone time,love spending time only with a few ppl,where am I possibly going wrong..
I don't have any social thirst..

Wonder if there is someone else who feels like me?