Every day, like a prayer, I tell myself I am alone and it is good.
It is so good for me.
Do not try. Do not hope.
Just be.
I feel at home alone in nature. I speak out loud when I'm alone. I enjoy my own company. Nobody's clunky energy is scaring away the birds.
In therapy, my visualizations of safety are always alone in nature. Even when I'm asked to imagine a person, I can't.
Most people make me feel uneasy and embarrassed to be myself.
Loneliness has followed me around a long time and I think it's time to turn and face it. Loneliness is a part of me too.
I have myself. I can be kind to others within safe limits. It is only my expectations that disappoint me. Not people. People don't owe me anything because I am alone. It simply must be.
It does get easier as time passes. Rejection barely stings. Because I know, always and without a doubt, every day, I have me and I have nature. That's why it's all gonna be okay 🖤
Do not try. Do not hope.
Just be.
I feel at home alone in nature. I speak out loud when I'm alone. I enjoy my own company. Nobody's clunky energy is scaring away the birds.
In therapy, my visualizations of safety are always alone in nature. Even when I'm asked to imagine a person, I can't.
Most people make me feel uneasy and embarrassed to be myself.
Loneliness has followed me around a long time and I think it's time to turn and face it. Loneliness is a part of me too.
I have myself. I can be kind to others within safe limits. It is only my expectations that disappoint me. Not people. People don't owe me anything because I am alone. It simply must be.
It does get easier as time passes. Rejection barely stings. Because I know, always and without a doubt, every day, I have me and I have nature. That's why it's all gonna be okay 🖤
41-45, F
