I Miss My Childhood

[b][c=#008099]Do you ever just sit down and reminisce your childhood days?[/c][/b] Because for some reason, I do. It is so happy to go back to those memories but also sad to do so. Whenever I hear songs that used to play during the past, I couldn't help but tear up thinking about how good it was when I was still a kid. Back then, we were so carefree and innocent. Whoever knew about the world, fvck it, we will play with mud, we will run so carelessly until we stumble down. But then we will get up and continue running. The innocence, I missed it. The times I didn't care about the world. The times my mom used to run after me... Those were the times I felt so like me. That was me. No pretending, no depression, nothing. It's just me, having fun with my friends, my cousins. But now, I know a lot about the world and I felt like my own world shrunk. I'm afraid of betrayal, I'm afraid of getting hurt but still got hurt anyway. I have trust issues. I pretend I'm okay and could do it but I knew I'm almost giving up. I battle on my own. But back then, I battle with sticks together with my friends. We only know joy, and love and all those beautiful things. I missed it. I missed everything from when I was still the naive me. I missed being myself regardless of who I am with. I missed being a kid where my mom could carry me and make my tears stop by singing a song. But now, I cry on my own and stop myself from crying. I only ever seek my mom if I couldn't take it anymore so she wouldn't worry. Now there's no more "I only know all the beautiful things"... There's only the "I need to make things right, make things okay"... Twenty pilots is right. Wish we could turn back time, to the good old days... 💔