I Do Not Like People to See Me Cry

I don't like people seeing me cry. I feel vulnerable and uncomfortable. Part of the reason is that my friends see me as this strong young lady who takes challenges head on. I am that friend who embraces my friends when they break down in tears. I am nurturing like a mother and I always want to be strong in front of them. My friends have made jokes such as, "I can never see you cry! You are so tough and got yourself together." Those words would constantly echo in my head and I felt pressured to keeping my composure during the worst times. I admit, I cry to myself somewhere alone but if I can't hold myself together in front of someone I will cry and I know that they are always there to help me.

As an example I went back home and after feeling stressed I was about to cry and when I saw my brother and mom I just broke down. They comforted me, said some funny jokes, and made me a big cup of green tea. I still feel uncomfortable to cry but if I don't show those that matter to me how I am truly feeling, they will never know and I will continue to suffer in silence.

I have learned that your friends and loved ones who truly love you would rather have you sob into them and cry for hours rather than doing it in silence.