I Do Not Like People to See Me Cry

I was crying today and I hate crying in front of others! I was so embarrassed because I felt I was crying for a dumb reason, and also because I was crying after church. I was just saying how things were bad at home, and in that moment, I felt like crying.
And now I keep thinking of something that was said about wanting things that aren't good for us. And it got me so upset. Idk if the things I do want, at this point in my life are good or bad for me. So I need clarity. And I need to listen if the universe is telling me not to be with someone I want to be with. I might have to step away from relationships for a while. That isn't something I feel I want, but it may be necessary for my own good.