I Do Not Like People to See Me Cry

You won't ever see it. Does not mean that I don't cry.
When the weight of the world comes crushing in on me, When I am overwhelmed by negativity, when I had my fill, I will wonder off to a secluded place. I will sit by my self and let the hot tears fall. I will hug my knees to my chest and cry. Each tear is something I am letting go of. Each salty stream is something melting away.
It is a moment of weakness, a moment of vulnerability that I never allow to be seen by others.
My kids have never seen me cry, my husband has never witnessed the breakdown, although they are aware I do.
Vulnerability is not something I will allow others to see or exploit.

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Watergirl · 51-55, F

Notlooking... I am glad to know I am not alone.
I always related to the story ....
A man asked God,"Why did you make women so weak that they cry all the time?" God's response was,"Women keep the family together. They take on their children's fears and sadness so the children won't have to go through it alone. I made their hearts so fUll of love and understanding so they may be the diplomats. I made their legs strong enough to stand tall with their loved ones through all the trials in life. I made their hands soft but strong so they may nurture and protect even through the toughest storms. I had to give them the tears to release the pressures that has been put on them. Crying is not a symbol of their weakness but of their strength.