I Do Not Like People to See Me Cry

You won't ever see it. Does not mean that I don't cry.
When the weight of the world comes crushing in on me, When I am overwhelmed by negativity, when I had my fill, I will wonder off to a secluded place. I will sit by my self and let the hot tears fall. I will hug my knees to my chest and cry. Each tear is something I am letting go of. Each salty stream is something melting away.
It is a moment of weakness, a moment of vulnerability that I never allow to be seen by others.
My kids have never seen me cry, my husband has never witnessed the breakdown, although they are aware I do.
Vulnerability is not something I will allow others to see or exploit.

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I was taught that only the weak cry so I did everything in my power to never let others see me cry. The world got too heavy though and I had no choice but to let go, regardless of whether or not I was alone. I despise pity and fight breaking down in front of others with everything I have, but sometimes, just sometimes I lose that fight.