One day you wake up and nobody cares about you anymore.

There's no one to ask for help. Not a kind word waiting for you.

I've never felt so alone and afraid. I had always been able to muster up the energy and hustle some money to make us feel safe. To keep us going. Now I'm lost.

I did the right thing for others, but not for myself. It's disappointing. I wanted to believe the kindness and love I put out would create good energy and make it's way back around. But that was mumbo jumbo.

I've reached the point of needing help, now that there is none. Now that I pushed away the people that offered before, believing I had to do it all myself.

What have I done?

Why am I such a shit show?

I really tried but I am more naive than I ever could of known.

I am a complete failure at the parts of life requiring and revolving around money. I've worked my fingers to the bone and have nothing to show for it. The world and my predecessors make choices that just make everything harder for regular people. It's like there's no way out.

I know I'm not the only one who feels this way. But I'm reaching the end of my rope. I feel punished for being honest and trying to make it on my own.