I dont know what to do
Hey, I've been wanting to commit the thing for at least 3 years now, I made a vow to myself when i was little that I was going to kill myself by the age of 16, ha-ha, guess what, I am 13, but I feel like its kind nice to die now, that's my way, and I'm trying to think of a way to die, ha-ha, super weird right?
Its like you don want to die, but you also don't want to live and face reality, i know I'm weak to kill and escape reality, call me a coward or anything, and tell me that Jesus died for me and how we should respect life, (no hate to Christians out there, i love y'all) that's what my Foster mom said the last time i told her, ha-ha, no hate to her too, Shes a sweetheart.
I hate my biological parents so much, but at the end of the day, they're still my parents and they birthed me, so, i have to respect them. My mom is an abusive parent and have a obsessive way of losing weight, My father is rarely home and puts a lot of pressure on me, perfectness is his goal for me, I have a sister, she's 4 years younger than me, love that little brat so much, but i don't know how to love her, so think i made her hate me, hah..... I don't know how to love her.....My life is not that bad, I know many of you out there have worse lives than me and still have the courage to go on, really appreciate y'all for that amazing strength, sent my digital love out there babes. My biological dad is also super racist and so is my mother, who accepts me as a pansexual kiddo, which my dad hates, as he is homophobic, hates female, transphobic, really, just, hate him to his guts.
Thats kind of my family, i know there are many other people out there with worst family situations than me, bless you all out there, haha.......
Its like you don want to die, but you also don't want to live and face reality, i know I'm weak to kill and escape reality, call me a coward or anything, and tell me that Jesus died for me and how we should respect life, (no hate to Christians out there, i love y'all) that's what my Foster mom said the last time i told her, ha-ha, no hate to her too, Shes a sweetheart.
I hate my biological parents so much, but at the end of the day, they're still my parents and they birthed me, so, i have to respect them. My mom is an abusive parent and have a obsessive way of losing weight, My father is rarely home and puts a lot of pressure on me, perfectness is his goal for me, I have a sister, she's 4 years younger than me, love that little brat so much, but i don't know how to love her, so think i made her hate me, hah..... I don't know how to love her.....My life is not that bad, I know many of you out there have worse lives than me and still have the courage to go on, really appreciate y'all for that amazing strength, sent my digital love out there babes. My biological dad is also super racist and so is my mother, who accepts me as a pansexual kiddo, which my dad hates, as he is homophobic, hates female, transphobic, really, just, hate him to his guts.
Thats kind of my family, i know there are many other people out there with worst family situations than me, bless you all out there, haha.......
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