i wish i could say i forgot about similar worlds

i wish that i forgot about this place, because that means i don’t think i would be suffering from depression anymore but im still here, my therapist sent me a letter, explaining all the things she thought was wrong with me, it was four pages long. talking to her doesn’t make me feel better and i sometimes wonder why i go to her at all, i have work in a couple of hours but i don’t want to go anymore, i don’t want to do anything anymore, im so tired and scared