Recommend that you Read or Listen to some Ekhardt Tollie talks. He speaks about the pain body. Quite interesting and helpful.

I understand how you feel sadly, don't give up yet. I believe in you although I do not know you. I know sometimes the world feels like it's crushing you and all there is hate...I've had so many people turn their backs on me but I didn't give up and I believe in you. I wish you the best!