I Have A Dark Side And A Darker Side

@HeartlessLove I have also craved to be understood only to be let down by people claiming to be the same, claiming to be the person who can join me until I become to much for them, the fake smiles and words gone quicker then the pain from a small cut to the skin. I told myself that if I was to ever really find someone like me, I would be torn between wanting to do nothing but talk and plan together and maybe take certain actions, and locking them away so that I would never lose them, never have to be without them

@Beautifullyderanged I don't claim to be people or even a person because I've realized people dont have any true dark desires or impulses all they worry about is what they will eat, what will they will wear & when can they sleep...meanwhile what sustain us is darkness & those cold, deranged, twisted Desires & impulses that come along with it...when you don't forsaken it. I won't forsaken you.

@HeartlessLove you have to use their terminology. People ask the wrong types of questions if you are seen to be 'different'. Playing along is part of the game, and makes it more satisfying when they learn too late just who you really are and what you are capable of. They are our victims, learning their behaviour, copying it, is the best way to get close. I will never forsake you, you are a being to cherish and nurture

@Beautifullyderanged Agreed but now I understand as an animal it's dangerous to live among humans...before I could gain control I was hospitalized & imprisoned & in those cages I learned to play nice.
I'm ready to stop playing & live a little or a lot...

@HeartlessLove we only have one life, why restrain ourselves? In their attempts to restrain you, make you conform, they have made you stronger and more capable

They have awakened me. I always had reason for restraint when dealing with them, it's the only way I know how to deal with them.