I Have A Dark Side And A Darker Side

I'll never shy away from it
I know all my demons by name
I beckon them at will
I will never fill the void
I love it and all it comes with
The numbness, the coldness, the isolation, the whispers, the scars, the blood, The paranoia
All of my trophies
I've earned them all
I won't allow no one to take them away from me
So don't try..
Don't tell me to let go
Don't call me a saint
Don't call me the devil
But don't mistaken me for human either
I'm somewhere trapped in between
A ghost perhaps
A martyr
Is what I am
Willingly, waiting to die