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OogieBoogie 路 F
You know ....I've been recently becoming VERY aware of this feeling at work .
Now don't get me wrong ...I love my work . I know it serves a practical purpose and it's with people and kids ....so I think that is important too.
But ...
...I'm finding more and more often now that it's not about the kids.....it's about the system . It's about the protocols.
And everyone is SO OBSESSED about the protocols and rules, they totally ignore empathy, human observation, initiative, feeling....and care.
People are getting so lost in the details they can't see the bigger picture, or anything right before their eyes ....or even ask "why?".
And if you do ask why ....they don't know ! - they have just been told "you need to do this" .
Sometimes I look at my boss going off at me over something trivial .....and she's all red in the face over it.
And I actually need to put on the "I'm so sorry" face, and pander to her and tell her she's right, before she can actually subside and deflate back into the semblance of a real person .
I feel somewhere in the last year or two, that I've, (for lack of a better word) - sidestepped, or stepped out of their bubble of thinking.
I think of all the stress she has put me under in the past ....all the stress she has held and passed onto me, (and others)....when she never had to.
She [b]doesn't [/b] have to ...
But shes lost in it .
Work has become her life ....it IS her meaning.
Now I would understand that, if she was saving lives , or making the world a better place or some such ....but she's just a cog in a wheel.
She works, so she can take holidays to far off places each year ....to go shopping ...so she has something to talk about at work, besides work .
Work THAT out ?
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Sometimes while she's telling me stuff, and I'm standing there letting her feel all important and in control, there's this little part of my mind that tries to look through her eyes in to her soul....and I feel it's in there, huddled into a tiny ball ....just rocking back and forth.
And I wonder if she knows what serenity is .... or what peace is ....or what childlike wonder is...
And you know ....I got a feeling she doesn't .
Being at work is like watching people being chess pieces ....all playing their part - never moving beyond what they are designated to do .
And to make it worse ....now, in their lunch breaks ...they are all in their phones facebooking!
- And talking about Facebook
- And showing each other what their Facebook algorithm sends them....and I just think ...[b]wow!馃憖[/b]
Now don't get me wrong ...I love my work . I know it serves a practical purpose and it's with people and kids ....so I think that is important too.
But ...
...I'm finding more and more often now that it's not about the kids.....it's about the system . It's about the protocols.
And everyone is SO OBSESSED about the protocols and rules, they totally ignore empathy, human observation, initiative, feeling....and care.
People are getting so lost in the details they can't see the bigger picture, or anything right before their eyes ....or even ask "why?".
And if you do ask why ....they don't know ! - they have just been told "you need to do this" .
Sometimes I look at my boss going off at me over something trivial .....and she's all red in the face over it.
And I actually need to put on the "I'm so sorry" face, and pander to her and tell her she's right, before she can actually subside and deflate back into the semblance of a real person .
I feel somewhere in the last year or two, that I've, (for lack of a better word) - sidestepped, or stepped out of their bubble of thinking.
I think of all the stress she has put me under in the past ....all the stress she has held and passed onto me, (and others)....when she never had to.
She [b]doesn't [/b] have to ...
But shes lost in it .
Work has become her life ....it IS her meaning.
Now I would understand that, if she was saving lives , or making the world a better place or some such ....but she's just a cog in a wheel.
She works, so she can take holidays to far off places each year ....to go shopping ...so she has something to talk about at work, besides work .
Work THAT out ?
馃し馃槼馃し馃槼馃し馃槼馃し
Sometimes while she's telling me stuff, and I'm standing there letting her feel all important and in control, there's this little part of my mind that tries to look through her eyes in to her soul....and I feel it's in there, huddled into a tiny ball ....just rocking back and forth.
And I wonder if she knows what serenity is .... or what peace is ....or what childlike wonder is...
And you know ....I got a feeling she doesn't .
Being at work is like watching people being chess pieces ....all playing their part - never moving beyond what they are designated to do .
And to make it worse ....now, in their lunch breaks ...they are all in their phones facebooking!
- And talking about Facebook
- And showing each other what their Facebook algorithm sends them....and I just think ...[b]wow!馃憖[/b]
thinkingoutloud 路 F
@OogieBoogie I really love this. Yes, we can love something and we can even see the darker sides of it. The system and how so much of us plays along with it.
OogieBoogie 路 F
@thinkingoutloud I actually fell into it for a while. I started feeling sick about going to work, wondering what new hell was going to be shoved onto me, or what insignificant thing was going to make my boss give me a dressing down for ....it was awful .
The stress was doing me in .
But somehow, someway ...in the last few months, (maybe year), I've felt something inside me shift.
I can be in a meeting, but half of me is just watching all the stress and 'importance' and frankly "bullshit" of it all .....it's [i]almost [/i] like extra curricular homework - we don't need to do it, it's not crucial to our job, but they try to make you feel you have to ....and literally guilt trip you if you don't .
And I'm watching my coworkers get stressed out, get anxious ....just like I used to .
But for some reason, I can [i]see[/i] it now 馃し
It's like watching rats in a maze ....all running about. It's very bizarre .
And the hardest part is not letting it show .
I've found that if I don't look like I'm stressed out about it ....they aren't happy - it makes them worse .馃檮
So I gotta listen, look stressed , promise I'm gonna do all their extra pointless stuff ...
...then walk off, forget about it , and get back to the [b]real effective [/b] part of my job , the nit that really counts ....and the bit that I love 鈽猴笍
But I can see how we can get sucked into it .
Work can be like a dysfunctional abusive relationship ....all it needs is one person to change the dynamic ....and then all sorts of stress and miscommunication happens.
The stress was doing me in .
But somehow, someway ...in the last few months, (maybe year), I've felt something inside me shift.
I can be in a meeting, but half of me is just watching all the stress and 'importance' and frankly "bullshit" of it all .....it's [i]almost [/i] like extra curricular homework - we don't need to do it, it's not crucial to our job, but they try to make you feel you have to ....and literally guilt trip you if you don't .
And I'm watching my coworkers get stressed out, get anxious ....just like I used to .
But for some reason, I can [i]see[/i] it now 馃し
It's like watching rats in a maze ....all running about. It's very bizarre .
And the hardest part is not letting it show .
I've found that if I don't look like I'm stressed out about it ....they aren't happy - it makes them worse .馃檮
So I gotta listen, look stressed , promise I'm gonna do all their extra pointless stuff ...
...then walk off, forget about it , and get back to the [b]real effective [/b] part of my job , the nit that really counts ....and the bit that I love 鈽猴笍
But I can see how we can get sucked into it .
Work can be like a dysfunctional abusive relationship ....all it needs is one person to change the dynamic ....and then all sorts of stress and miscommunication happens.
thinkingoutloud 路 F
@OogieBoogie Many people are feeling this shift at present. :) It's a good thing, in my opinion.
OogieBoogie 路 F
@thinkingoutloud I hope they are. Considering the amount of time we spend at work, it'd be bad if it only made you feel stressed out all the time .
That's not healthy ....and can overflow into your personal life .
That's not healthy ....and can overflow into your personal life .