Upbringings

@HootyTheNightOwl ooh no , Im guessing you were physically abused when you were younger?

@Adwoa Yup

@HootyTheNightOwl I’m sorry to hear that. You say that you dissociate a lot, so have you been able to find a way to heal and move forward from it.

@Adwoa I disowned my "dad" as soon as I was 16... and my mum is dead now.

As much as I miss her, I don't miss her part in the abuse.

With the dissociation, I don't mind that too much as long as those closest to me can handle my selves. I generally enjoy being in my happy place and try to seek that out... but I don't like dissociating from fear - apparently, those are the ones that can steal my memories.

@HootyTheNightOwl I hear you at least you found a place that can bring you happiness. Would you say your at peace within like true satisfaction or you just get temporary fulfillment?

@Adwoa I live in the moment right now, given that I'm still living in an abusive situation. If I can go a few hours without being affected by abuse... then I've won.

I don't think I'll achieve true peace until I can get out of here and cut family ties that need to be cut - but, I've been trying to work towards that for quite a while now.

@HootyTheNightOwl if you disowned your dad at 16 and your mum passed away, how r you still enduring abuse or if this by another family member ?

@Adwoa I married an abuser at 19... I've been trying to get away from him for almost 8 years now...

@HootyTheNightOwl omg have you reported to the police or have a close friend you can stay with for a little while?