A guy of my age is a judge in some court ,

and he is getting married too .


It embarrasses me so much , that I m not a successful person , I m still doing job in low company , and preparing to work in another .




But it is strange , my earlier tutor is also judge in a district court .
He gave an exam which selected only 76 judges throughout the country .


So many people had became judges in different courts .

I didn't got any government position ,
should I blame others , or myself , that I was trying to impress my girlfriend for years , so she do not breakup with me .

It was stressful , she left still , and I did bad in my university education .

I still wish , I could study again , do better now , try for a better job .


I m stupid , always .