how miserable is it
to be alone and on your own in your mid 40s.....most guys are married by now or at least established in a relationship...that just hasn't happened to me, i have lived alone 17 years now in a little flat dealing with severe mental problems.....i have so far never found or established relationships....and even though i'm a natural loner and reserved...i did hope to find a partner or mate....but as time moves on, that is looking increasingly unlikely for me.