I Like Being Alone But Sometimes It Is Hard To Do It All Alone

I have been single by choice for a handful of years now. I've had my regular ups and downs with it, all normal things.... but tonight is difficult.

I came home crawled in my bad and before i could even get situated out of nowhere i started crying ... I feel so alone. All I can think about is how nice it must be to come home to someone. How nice it must be to have someone to unwind and talk through emotions of your say with. Someone to just cuddle and feel comfortable with. Part of me truly want something more then I have. I know this feeling will pass but it's not a good place to be.

Im glad I've discovered a part of me wants this. But at the same time it's not going to be something the bigger part of me wants.