I Ve Been Alone All Along

I am no longer friends with my best friend and I'm honestly thinking about dropping all of my friendships. First off I would like to say it's not their fault. From a very early age I've learned that being funny and pretending to be stupid every now and then made a lot of people happy so I kept doing it. All through high school I kept the act up but I made sure my academics didn't completely suffer. Now at 21 I have lots of friends who honestly don't know anything about me besides the fact that I'm funny and we like the same music. Every time I want to talk about something serious it's like I'm an alien to them or something and my thoughts are dismissed or criticized to the point I don't want to say anything anymore. I'm considering being a loner again like when I was in college. I'm going to keep learning and find a way to let my true self shine. After all flowers do grow despite the sharp winds, heavy rain, and insects/animals that live off of them.That says a lot.