I Am So Alone

I grew up but I never matured, my life lacked the love & compassion so essential to one's developement.

So I'm here, broken, and I barely know it, only by seeing the life in other's eyes do I know that something is missing, something is wrong.

I am compassionless, both in that I have little compassion & am shown so little, maybe one created the other, maybe they developed individually.

All that I know is that I want that compassion, that I'm missing it, that I'm broken & it breaks me still.

Someone look into my eyes, though my ex<x>pressions may change, my eyes reveal something different.

I know why you don't look in my eyes, I understand the reasons that my words or my presence may make you somewhat confused, somewhat uncomfortable, but let your love shine through to me, shine light into the dark I'm trapped in, show me a way out, be my way out.. please.

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mily24

So sorry to hear your going through a difficult time. But I hate to tell you this people will always let you down, they are flawed just as you are, nothing is permanent there no such thing as a permanent state of happiness or sadness. The only thing that is constant and permanent is God, turn to him ask for HIS compassion and his guidance through this crewl world, and trust me just keep on praying even when you feel there's no point, and there will come a point when your heart will soften and you well feel his mercy and compassion, just don't stop praying when things get better show your gratitude through kindness and charity.

Winterwanderer · 26-30, M

People will not always let you down though, that's not Biblical, people make mistakes sure, but they don't always let you down, especially if they put in the effort & truly care about one another.

God gives people the ability to overcome obstacles, there is no temptation beyond what we can bear, and he always provides a way out, 1 Cor 10:13 If people wanted to succeed they easily could, but if they don't succeed it is because they didn't truly desire to, not enough to put in the effort that God gave us.

I seek the compassion & guidance of God, but it is not wrong to expect things from one another, to expect love, because part of the greatest commandments was to really love others, now it's never something you force out of them that you pressure out of them, but it's something they're capable of, it's not wrong to hold people to God's standards, God believes we can live each other & overcome obstacles, I also believe this, and I search for it in people but I don't seem to find it.

QuestionMarks

Very very beautiful response. Ty for sharing the hope you have found.

QuestionMarks

You gave me a richer more meaningful perspective about people.

Winterwanderer · 26-30, M

Thank you, wow (c: I'm glad I could say something meaningful to you

mily24

All I am saying is if your compassionate and kind to others for the sake of God then you will never feel disappointed by others behaviours. You know that your reward is with him.

And if people have hurt you as much as you say then it's best to distant yourself from such negative people. I'm not saying cut them off be pleasant but don't engage to much with them. And perhaps also consider the type of people you allow in your life in future. Focus on their action rather then their words, consider what they value and if they value you. This takes time so be patient.

Winterwanderer · 26-30, M

Yeah thank you, I think I really consider more about the people in my life, especially the ones who are able to affect me so directly