Do you find it hard to ask for help?

Even when people have offered to be there for me I still find it hard to reach out. I worry that people were just being polite, or might have their own stuff going on, or maybe just aren’t in the mood and if I reach out they’d feel obliged or guilted into talking to me. My head can just be such a dark place and all of my thoughts work against me. I’d rather suffer on my own than feel like a burden to others