It's so odd to become aware of my face on a daily basis, in casual interactions
I don't look at myself much in the mirror, almost at all, unless I have to brush my teeth in the dark in the morning and before bed or if I have to pop a pimple or put cream on it.
I don't wear mane up, and it's hard for me to try and wear makeup since I have to look at my face as a whole.
I don't think I'm ugly, that's not it. Others said I'm pretty and even I tend to think I am at least okay looking. It's just that, it's so weird to look at my face in the mirror, so off putting in a way. And its even worse if I happen to see it while laughing or making a facial expression in a random reflecting surface, it just burns my mood down. Or even worse, a picture taken of me unknowingly. If I know, I at least am aware and can try and smile but, otherwise I am so turned off and uncomfortable to see myself overall in a picture or in a mirror. I don't even have any selfies. Maybe 3 at best and those I tried to force myself to have fun and memories of how I used to look.
I don't hate what I see, it's just that it's so odd and weird and off putting 90% of the time.
It's also so weird to simply talk, make a facial expression, feel it, and then just be so shaken by the idea that others can see it, and especially when I saw how i look when I do certain facial expressions, since sometimes friends might have taken pictures of me unknowingly and then show me.
I'm not sure if this is face dysphoria or something. Just something I wanted to say somewhere online, to let it out before i go sleep.
Edit: idk if i chose the right group for this, but hopefully I did.
I don't wear mane up, and it's hard for me to try and wear makeup since I have to look at my face as a whole.
I don't think I'm ugly, that's not it. Others said I'm pretty and even I tend to think I am at least okay looking. It's just that, it's so weird to look at my face in the mirror, so off putting in a way. And its even worse if I happen to see it while laughing or making a facial expression in a random reflecting surface, it just burns my mood down. Or even worse, a picture taken of me unknowingly. If I know, I at least am aware and can try and smile but, otherwise I am so turned off and uncomfortable to see myself overall in a picture or in a mirror. I don't even have any selfies. Maybe 3 at best and those I tried to force myself to have fun and memories of how I used to look.
I don't hate what I see, it's just that it's so odd and weird and off putting 90% of the time.
It's also so weird to simply talk, make a facial expression, feel it, and then just be so shaken by the idea that others can see it, and especially when I saw how i look when I do certain facial expressions, since sometimes friends might have taken pictures of me unknowingly and then show me.
I'm not sure if this is face dysphoria or something. Just something I wanted to say somewhere online, to let it out before i go sleep.
Edit: idk if i chose the right group for this, but hopefully I did.
