I got what I deserve

My mom and people have really crushed down my feelings down......because I kept pushing to understand....I got confused but they dont want me to understand everything......
Even God constantly shut me up....So I bursted in tears.
This caused me to get rid of my other decorations. They seemed fun at first, but the real truth I get ended up, receiving rudeness. So i was like
ok so I cant beg anymore.
So then I told myself “Why depend on things when all I ever get is nothing...Back off.”
I always get the opposition.
They all force me to stay out of other businesses.
They ignore my question just to consider me argumentative...and crazy. And I think some
of you guys in SW have gotten me upset. This is what I get for depending on things. Cant push it anymore. I have a right to be nothing
and stop thinking and adding.