How was 2023 for you?

My mental health declined drastically especially in the second half of the year. I visited my horrible sister, and if you see what she’s actually like when she’s not putting on a facade you’ll be horrified at how bad someone can be. It was all okay before visiting her.

Some good stuff happened too, but rn my mental health is really bad, I lock myself in the room, watch tv all day so I don’t have to think, go to the kitchen twice a day to make myself something to eat, go to bed by 9pm hoping I don’t wake up the next day.

I’ll list the good stuff too, apparently that rewires the brain:
1) I got to work as a consultant endodontist, I enjoyed that, it was my first real job.
2) I took up a part time as a resident dentist and made amazing bunch of friends who actually liked me.
3) I learnt new stuff at the clinic.
4) I started driving by myself(it’s a big deal for me, it’s not as easy driving in india)
5) I passed the US board exam in my first attempt despite living in a very toxic environment and even tho I took it right after breaking up with the bf of 5 years.
6) I finally learnt how to conceal my dark circles nicely, and I realised with makeup I’m pretty darn hot.
7) I got hair treatment done so my hair looks a lot nicer than last year.
8) My baby cat became mommy.
9) I realised I’ don’t get anxious asking for things from the stewardess. (That was hard for me until like last year)

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PrestonJ · 36-40

It was a little all over the place but I feel good about it.

1. I ended my first long term relationship with a guy

2. Revisited a past relationship from over 7 years ago and discovered it should have stayed there.

3. I got a promotion and a new title, but was then let go with everyone else because that facility closed down.

4. I traveled a ton. I went to the beach for 9 days, camped in the cold for a week in Tennessee, visited a my home city of Atlanta for a week and spent a week in California. With plans to go to New York next week for nine days starting next Wednesday. It has changed the way I feel about myself and people.

5. Made progress in therapy and accepted a lot of things about myself including cross dressing, how I prefer to be in a relationship, and discovered my self esteem was destroyed by my job and had been stunted growing up

6. I decided to start dating women again. I dated guys for the past two years to solidify that part in me and find acceptance and then revisited my ex and remembered how much I enjoy the intimacy that women give.

7. Increased the amount I have saved and invested with the help of being let go at work.

8. I learned what style of clothing I like and embraced it. I prefer more stylish metrosexual type clothing (Not the norm In my area)

9. I stopped being surrounded by an extremely toxic group of people at work who actively worked against me.

10. I think I found my heart again. I had put up such high walls to protect myself from others that I didn’t even have full access to it. I think I’m finally putting myself first instead of being who I think others want me to be.