Being unconventionally pretty sucks
People tell me I am pretty… I do not think this, as I get mixed reviews. Even the people who tell me I’m pretty say even though I have a “unique look” or they don’t like mainstream beauty anyway.!
Which being told that, makes me second guess myself. I don’t mind the way I look, and I don’t think I’m ugly. I see myself as average. I think it’s because I don’t see people who “look like me”. Like my ethnic features (I do not fit eastern European beauty standards).
This has left me with very poor self esteem. I think it goes back to my issue with compliments that make it still seem like there is something wrong with me. Like my small boobs “still” being attractive. I’m “pretty” even though I’m “unique”. Why can’t I just be pretty? It’s sad feeling like an “other”. Being reminded that my features aren’t what’s considered pretty by most people.
Which being told that, makes me second guess myself. I don’t mind the way I look, and I don’t think I’m ugly. I see myself as average. I think it’s because I don’t see people who “look like me”. Like my ethnic features (I do not fit eastern European beauty standards).
This has left me with very poor self esteem. I think it goes back to my issue with compliments that make it still seem like there is something wrong with me. Like my small boobs “still” being attractive. I’m “pretty” even though I’m “unique”. Why can’t I just be pretty? It’s sad feeling like an “other”. Being reminded that my features aren’t what’s considered pretty by most people.
