Goes without saying, but I won't be finishing Inktober this month 🙏

I'm not leaving but I'm gonna shut down for a lil while. You guys are helpful, I just don't want any reminders rn 😔

Thank you to anyone who's spoken to me or offered encouragement. Honestly, most of it I didn't get to read because I deleted my posts before checking who reacted or said anything. I felt too embarrassed to know who saw any of it. But I appreciate it nonetheless.

I just need to let my heart heal somehow. & Being on here.. I don't think I can heal that way 🖤 I'll always have feelings & I can't stop that.. I gotta just shut them all down for now.

I was hanging out with my closest friends yesterday.. known them for a long time. My best friend is currently going through a divorce & his wife won't let him see his son, who is fighting cancer. My friend cried in front of me yesterday, told me how shitty he feels & how much he feels like it's his fault.
It made me realize that I feel his pain, but my pain rn is nothing compared to his.
I'm crying because I lost my gf.. he's crying because he lost his wife.. & his son.
He's going through something so much harder than me. I just hugged him & cried too. There's nothing I could say. Just be there.

I'm so caught up in my own world I almost forgot my friends are here for me too.. & we have real life shit to focus on. So that's what I'm gonna do. Just focus on life for a while.

I'll still be here but you'll all see less of me ✌️