You determine how you feel about everything. You could simply change your opinion of Yourself and feel valued, feel that your help was accepted with love. It really is 100% up.to.you.

Having said that I had a CT scan the other day. I was put inside the machine and was suddenly claustrophobic. My brain was working against me. Panic Attack. I know exactly what you are going through. I dwell on the negative. I have a really hard time getting myself out of negative self talk. I wish things were different.

Replace all negative thoughts with a positive though and you can change the way.your brain works.