Pretentiousness

I now realize how pretentious am i. This is my most used emoji on social mediad showing i am happy and everything is okay and i am strong but it is all a total lie. 😭😭😖😫😩😓. I want now to use the emoji how my life sucks. How i hate myself. How bad am i. How selfish am i. How insecure am i. How pretentious am i. How I'm nothing. How am i not worth anything. How i should have not exist. How i don't deserve anything good. How i am a bad influence. How i influence people of my bad side. How good people became evil because they were with me. How useless am i. How i suck at everything. How i should never be happy. There’s so many how.

I am not like this before but i think this is who i am now. I'm bad and everything. I don't know how i come up to this and become so selfish.