I need to stand stronger, not because of the incidents, just to, not lose sight of my greater purpose and mission to be an artist.

@Strongtea thank you. Do not judge yourself harshly, we get to experience all sorts of periods and sometimes we need deep deep rest for years, I have gone through that myself, before beginning my wild explorations - I have taken 8 years once upon a time, to sort out my belongings - I had plenty - and leave nothing but my backpack and then flew away.
I am sharing this to tell you that, some periods are necessary for the soil to regenerate, before planting the next harvest.