I Want More Self-confidence

I used to feel this way and I used to have very low confidence in myself. I refused to talk to anyone, I refused to include myself in anyone's conversations and anyone's parties. I was the wallflower that stayed silent. my family hardly knew who I was inside because I never spoke. I walked with arms crossed and anger in my eyes hoping no one would mess with me, wearing all black hoping to make people go away. I even went so far once as to growl at a bully and threaten to eat their soul so they would leave me alone. I never thought it was an issue, I had been raised to enjoy being by myself, with having an abusive older brother and a depressed mother, and a working father. it was not until I started making friends that I saw the light of the issue. because even though I had the friends I still felt awkward talking. and being included.

I never thought I would open my shell... until I became a cashier at Wal-Mart. doing my job has taught me to smile at anyone who passes, to say hello to everyone to tl every single person good morning. to help anyone that needed help and to speak for once and have the confidence to not be shy and to have a conversation with someone I never met. it's allowed me to open my shell to family as well, they finally really know me. everyone knows me now instead of trying tp guess what I am thinking, I'm saying it. so I urge you to force yourself or find something that forces you to be more confident in life. it will permanently change your entire existence