I Have No Self Confidence Or Self Esteem

I'm a guy and I have no dominance in my life but I wasn't always aware of it. Or I just dropped in confidence and the world around me. I lay in my most of the day soaking in depression. Often contemplating checking out of life. Thinking about it gives me comfort. It's not like I don't think I can but I just don't think I can if that makes senese. I'm turning 26 pretty soon and I see zero reason for life besides wanting to get to Heaven and even at that I've been lost and strayed away for more than a season. I lack so much that even my cat I'm positive picks up on it and I feel so powerless like I could say something but it's not confident or anything so why bother my make cat was worse though but I love them. And a host of other problems that shouldn't be on the mind at the age and I'm just a mess. I literally feel lost like my gut shakes from them mess that I feel I'm in. I just want to fade.

Rhodesianman · 56-60, M

I am so sorry you feel like this ,I do understand how you feel as I suffer with bi-polar .You need to talk to your doctor as there could be a reason for it .The doctor could also put you in touch with councillors who might also be able to help good luck .