I Am Learning Self-respect, Self-care, And Self-love

My whole life, people are always saying something negative about my body. Since I was a kid, my own mother and some other family members would tell me I look fat, or to stop eating because I’m gaining weight despite my normal weight. I was a kid, not even 10 years old so that resulted in me not eating, almost to the verge of anorexia when I was a teenager and up until early adulthood. Then that time, people were calling me too skinny, even despite my body mass index or my weight was normal. My weight went up and down but still within normal range. Then because people would tell me something negative about my about at a young age, I developed a lot a insecurities. I would try a lot of unhealthy stuff just to look skinny when people called me fat, and would binge eat even though I wasn’t hungry when people called me too skinny. It was not healthy physically and mentally. Deep inside, I felt dead, unworthy, and useless.

Now, an adult, I learned a lot about myself. I wanted to become the happiest and greatest version of myself. I studied a lot about how the human body works, I studied nutrition, anatomy, and exercise physiology, and right now, I feel like I’m at my healthiest and happiest self. I am eating healthy, exercising regularly, and just plain loving life and my body. However, people would still call me that I’m too skinny or that I don’t look good, and honestly, IDGAF anymore.