I Am Disappointed In Myself

Well I got my hopes up isnt that stupid? I knew I had a bad feeling when I woke up and that bad feeling was correct. I thought... the call was for something different and I had already told 2 people two people who mean a hell of a lot to me that it was gonna happen and it didnt. I was wrong and I am disappointed in myself. Its so stupid to cry over this i mean...damn why did i get my hopes up? I dont know i just feel stupid to be honest.. I dont know what i was thinking